The Wall

This job is playing hell with my Hashimoto's. It's not just the adherence to the routine (although that's hard, too), it's the constant stress of... NEVER KNOWING WHAT THE HELL I'M DOING!

I'm a perfectionist: I'm hard on myself and a few hours of "training" are not enough to learn the intricacies of this job, who gets what, and memorizing the minutia of thousands of products. I'm a temp. Why do I put this much stress on myself? Why do I feel like I have to do my job as well as someone who has been with the company since its inception? Meantime, my body is paying the price and I'm not even half-way through. Maybe I'm just hitting that wall that invariably comes with learning something new and today I'll experience a breakthrough. I hope this is the case.