Over the past few days my ranty posts have been with made with a small amount of humor behind them. That part's over. The AC is
barely working. It pushes out air, but very little -- when it comes on. Sometimes, it doesn't come on until I go downstairs, turn it off for a minute, then turn it back on. I've worn a permanent path in the carpet from our room, down the stairs, across the living room, and down the hall where the thermostat is. I'm at the point now that I'm on the verge of tears; no real relief from the triple-digit heat has given me a migraine. Added to this, the DSL keeps going out and I've also worn a another path between where I sit with my laptop to the desktop computer where the modem is located. On top of all this, I'm not getting the advance I was led to expect, money that we seriously needed for our move. Instead, I'm being sent only a fraction; barely enough to cover our utility bill, thanks to this
f#%*ing AC
unit! How do we buy paint? How do we buy food? How do we buy the cleansers we need to clean this
f#%*ing house!? Where the hell am I going to get the energy to clean the garage and attic, Spackle
this house and clean it (including steam cleaning 2800 square feet of carpeting), then move a 5-bedroom house into a 3-bedroom one? Good God! I'm pushing 60 here and am in lousy health. Nettl is taking the last week of the month off from work to help with all this, but she's no longer young either. How are we going to move the dresser, the sofa, the china hutch, and the sofa? Hell, how are we going to move the
#%*ing piano!?
We can't afford to pay someone, that's for sure.
Hell, we can't even buy groceries for the week.
F#%*ing Bush and Cheney and their #$%^ing war.
F#%*ing Morgan Stanley.
F#%*ing Thyroidzilla.
F#%*ing post-menopausal aging issues.
F#%*ing f#%*!
I'm so tired of this
"one step forward,three steps back" crap. Beyond tired. I'm terrifyingly close to my breaking point. Ten years is too long to live under constant white-knuckled fear.
I may take a few days away from blogging. You guys don't need this crapola.
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*NAR: Not All Right. Used as either a description, verb, or moun as in, "That's NAR", "Don't NAR me out", and "This is a buttload of NAR!"