Zenspiration

I don't have the powers of concentration or the energy that I used to have. I want to work on my screenplay and really get it nailed down, but I have too many other projects that are distracting me and consuming my energy. Last night as I lay in bed trying to go to sleep, I decided to put everything away until the screenplay is finished. No Box of Wine book, no operetta, no cantata, no reading, no journals, nothing except the task at hand. Well, I'll still have to work, but when I'm not doing that I'll be hammering out scenes on this keyboard.

I used to be such a multi-tasker. I could work on several pieces of music, keep my daily journals, read four or five books, raise a kid, keep a house, work a full-time job and a part-time job, go to school, carry on a huge correspondence (before email came along) and keep a large garden—all simultaneously—and still find time and energy to party like a 20 year old. That was when I was in my late thirties! Where did it go? What happened to the me who ran circles around people almost half my age?

I suppose that part of getting older is accepting our newly-met limitations, so I'm prioritizing my projects so that I can get them accomplished. I have no choice.

Doesn't mean I have to like it though.