Last night I had an epiphany of sorts. I won't go into it, but I will say that I've seen an immediate turn-around. It had to do with submitting to the good things in life, to success and prosperity.All my life I've thought of submission as a kind of going belly up proposition, a giving in to that which I could not fight. But it occurred to me last night that I need to submit to the good things, not the bad. So I did. Maybe I've been living with a fear of success all my life after all.
This morning, before I was even really awake, I got three new jobs (one is HUGE!) and a bunch of revamping work for my best client. All this before 1:00 in the afternoon. Amazing! It has been so dry around here, and we're behind a month on our rent, so I really appreciate the work.
It wasn't any noble enlightenment I experienced, I just got good and pissed off at living on a thread-thin, fraying shoestring, so I said yes to security and peace of mind. Funny how simplistic it sounds once something dawns, and how much we're in the dark until it does.
:) I'm happy for you.
ReplyDelete'bout time some jobs came your way!
ReplyDeleteYay! Why is it so hard for us to give in to good Karma?
ReplyDeleteWhy does this cat remind me of you?
Because from the beginning we're taught, via religion, school, politics , family misdeeds, and society, that we are unworthy, sinful from our conception, etc. etc. ad libitum. I think it begins with the words, "...that saved a wretch like me--and similar sentiments.
ReplyDeleteIt's hard to break away from that negative scripting.
YAY!!!!!!!!!! I hope "the Force" stays with you!!!! Send some my way, okay?
ReplyDeleteso happy for you - I just love a good ephiphany! long live deserving the good!
ReplyDeletegood for you on those jobs! im happy for ya!
ReplyDelete"Original sin"--the most evil concept ever invented by humanity.
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ReplyDeleteCongratulations! On the jobs and on beating down the inner critic. You deserve the work and the prosperity.
ReplyDeleteI'm happy for you Steph! I sure know what it's like with a financial crunch.
ReplyDeleteFunny about your thing about submitting to peace and security - that's how my mind's been running lately. I got tired of living on the edge of financial implosion and just said, "Screw it! I'm just going to live and be happy and let the chips fall where they may!"
P.S. I decided I was worth a good life!
ReplyDeleteYes, I agree. "For such a worm as I", etc. We have been programmed to live in negativity and it's hard to "ac-cen-tuate the positive...e-lim-inate the negative"!
ReplyDeleteThis was helpful for me. I am envisioning security in your future. I'm thinking positively for you and yours.
ReplyDeleteThis was helpful for me. I am envisioning security in your future. I'm thinking positively for you and yours.
ReplyDelete:) I'm happy for you.
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