Later, it was my parents. When I moved to Denver to take care of my father, I gave up my career as a composer/conductor, and when my mother moved in with us in 2000, I lost my credit rating because she was so in debt, and had huge prescription bills. Well, there are things I want, damn it. Things that some people take for granted. Here's my "selfish" wish list:
a home here in Stillwater, Oklahoma.
Not a 2.5 million-dollar house in California,
or even an apartment in Vienna.
Not a 2.5 million-dollar house in California,
or even an apartment in Vienna.
a Takamine 12-String
a full pantry
A dog
a Siberian
a Bose Lifestyle 18 sound system
a wide-screen TV
a Jeep Wrangler
a birthday present for Nettl and each of the kids.
I'm tired of saying, "Next year, I promise."
I'm tired of saying, "Next year, I promise."
to go out to dinner once in a while.
On May 25th Nettl and I will be celebrating
the 8th anniversary of our Holy Union. We have
yet to go out for dinner for our anniversary,
much less take a weekend away for it.
For us, going out to dinner --for any occasion--
usually means we can drive through a fast food.
Granted, most of these things aren't necessary, but that's the point, damn it.
I can relate somewhat to this, Steph. Like you, I ended up having to support my mother and give up a life of my own. I won't go into all the details but for various reasons with my mom, I was crippled for so many years. Now I'm ready to have my life, my own little house and live in a place I choose to live in (rather than one I'm stuck in out of financial circumstances). So I'm at the point, but to finally bring it all into fruition, I need a job. And so what happens to the job market? I rest my case. But I'm going to look at this as just a brief holding pattern because I'll be damned if I will let government and other scum block this final dream of mine! A chance to live MY LIFE, not someone else's! I will fight this situation! I - you - we - WILL PREVAIL!!!
ReplyDeleteI think we've just been too nice. We don't like conflict or making waves. We're people pleasers to our own demise.
ReplyDeleteWell dammit, I'm DONE with that. From now on my needs and wants will be voiced, and if necessary, forcefully. Compliance has gotten me nothing but overlooked, ignored, and trod upon. No more Ms. Nice Guy. :P
And I want a f**king car that does what I tell it to do--locks when I tell it to lock. Unlocks when I tell it to unlock and doesn't f**king yell at me when I try to get in it!
ReplyDeleteI'm really getting pissed off with this damn "Christine" car!
I think we've just been too nice. We don't like conflict or making waves. We're people pleasers to our own demise.
ReplyDeleteWell dammit, I'm DONE with that. From now on my needs and wants will be voiced, and if necessary, forcefully. Compliance has gotten me nothing but overlooked, ignored, and trod upon. No more Ms. Nice Guy. :P